Hey Kiddo!

Jarrett:

Hello my diary. It´s so silly that I´m actually talking to a book. But I think you´re the only one that is listening to me right now. Today I don´t feel very well. And do you know who the reason for my mood is? Exactly! My mom. She really expects me to buy her a card for mother´s day? She was never there for me. My grandma was! She deserves a card, but not my mother. Every day I´ve been waiting for her to come back. But guess what, she didn´t. She always left me alone. She isn´t my real mom. For me personally not anymore. She is allowed to think what she wants, but I don´t want to be her son. I understand her problem. She is an addict. This isn´t easy to handle. But would it have been that difficult to care for me even a little bit? No one understands my position. I never had real parents many other kids do… My mom and dad were away. My whole life. Well, my mom not always. There was a time when I was little were my mother raised me. But like I mentioned, she is a drug addict. She made lots of problems so I couldn´t stay with her anymore… Anyways, she is not going to get a single card from me. She doesn´t deserve it. She is never going to deserve it, I think.

Leslie:

Dear diary, it´s me again. Well today is an even worse day than the others. Today is mother´s day. On mother´s day the sons and daughters usually gift a mother´s day card to their lovely mother. But guess what. I haven´t gotten any today. My son told me that I´m not his real mother. This sentence broke my heart, that was already broken so many times before. I try every day to recover from all of this. But I can´t. It´s so hard. Sometimes there are days where I just want to give up but then I think about Jarrett and try it again. I never said that I was a good mother to him. I probably think I´m one of the worst moms to ever exist. But why don´t I deserve a card from my son. Why can´t I be a part of his heart. I need my son…